Misanthrope to Nihilistic

I wanted to say this to you, but i know i won't..An advice.. Whatever happened to me, happened!!! But remember this... Have faith in the one you love!!! Humans do make mistakes... They need to be forgiven... Don't leave him alone...don't leave him alone...and do love again!!! It is the most beautiful thing in the world.. NO matter how much pain it gives!!!!

it was so nice to c u strong.. its like god has actually listened to me and made me weak and made u strong,,, for i had rarely felt so helpless... i disliked weak people, and i remember me telling you that, but now i feel weak, and i still dislike weak people...

Y do i have to pretend that i dont love her, I will not pretend, Y do i have to pretend like i dont care, I will not pretend, Do i still love her, Yes i Do, Yes i Do,....

Had thought about not writing anything before my exam, but i had to ... M feeling all strange, and sad.. Don't know what has happened... No, i think i know... It's the feeling of.. Being so close and yet so far.. Its the feeling of hate and repulsion i still hear in her voice, Its the feeling of being all lonely again... Every second away from her, is hard to pass, Every second seems like ages.. But then there are many more ages to go, For does she still feel the same, is what i don't know, is what i don't think so............ Few days backs she called, it was one of the best days of my life.. but like all good things are short lived it was too.... Strange thought encircle my mind, Strange fears i have now, No matter how strong i try to be, no matter how much i try to concentrate, i am not able to... Its this feeeling i am not able to do away with.. Can u Help..But how can you, U dont even know..